Chris' Poems

Updated November 13, 2002

Disclaimer: These poems were written by me in various times of my life. They are very much a part of me. I have read very little poetry and I have in no way tried to copy or imitate other poets' work. If something strikes you as familiar, please let me know. I hope at least one person may be touched by at least one of my poems.If you are one of those people or you just want to tell me how bad or good they are, feel free to send me some mail.Enjoy! - Chris

Index

Why Poetry?
Clouds
Parting
Movies
Time In Summer Nature
Is This Love Real?
Good And Bad
Flirtation
Decisions
Giving
Empty
It's Gotta Be Me - A Song
The Tall Tree
Wrong Or Right?
For Me
On The Brink
Transluscent Blue
Too Fast
A Snake
A Piece Of Heaven
The Beast
Angry
Oh How I Miss You
The Gecko
The Kareokeeolla Bear
Think Of Me
The Club
You Make Me Smile
Trapped
Complete
Complete II
Court
Tarnished
Joy, Life, Truth and Love
Something Missing
Leaving
Thinking
Bits And Pieces - a couple of unfinished poems
Season Of Christmas Joy
I Am Loving You
Every Day That I'm In Love
The First
Watching A Disaster Through A Window
The Bear
The "SIUYA" Lady
Commute
the one

* New poem.

Why Poetry?

Why did I choose to write poetry? I'm not really sure to be honest with you. It all started when I wrote a poem called "Clouds". To this day, I feel it is one of the best things I have ever written. It was basically a love poem but through time, its meaning changed into something completely different. It was a poem I had writen about my spirituality. I will leave the rest of the meaning of the poem to you, the reader to figure out.

I went through a very difficult time in my life not too long ago. I won't go into much detail suffice to say that during that time I discovered something that took me by complete surprise and still remains inside of me to this day - the love of writing. I tried to write a book but I found myself to be a very impatient writer. I figured I needed to try to write something small so I could have a feeling of completion so I tried to write poetry.

I like to keep my writing very simplistic. I want everyone to be able to read a story or read a poem and understand it. I don't think this is a bad way of writing. It just suits me. I want it to be easy to understand but also right on the doorstep of having some deep meaning.

Since my decision to start writing, I have written over thirty poems - some good and some bad. I really like to write and I hope that I can continue to write for a long time. I hope you can enjoy some of my poems as much as I enjoy writing them.

- Chris

Clouds

As I look at the sky, the clouds are high above
Their grace and beauty elegantly glide on the cool wind
As I look at the clouds, they remind me of you
Your elegance and beauty fill me with joy that makes my heart sing
As I am filled with joy that only your love brings
I am reminded that there is nothing higher
Nothing higher than my love for you
Not even the clouds
And that makes me smile.

Parting

I am so sorry for the things that have been done
I wonder what of our love will become
You are gone and with you my heart
I know not how to live apart

I remember the smile and sometimes your laugh
And the way you breathed when you napped
You gave me completeness in every single way
And could brighten up nearly all my days

But now those days have come and gone
And now life looks rather strange beyond
They say that time can mend your heart
Why oh why did we have to part?

Movies

As I sit and stare and watch the screen
I like the good the bad the mean

The music the sounds the lights flash
Its a good thing I brought lots of cash

The ticket and the soda and the popcorn
Have left my wallet pretty worn

I twist and turn and watch the scenes
I like the guns the tears the screams

The suspense the climax the credits roll
I know that soon I'll have to stroll

I'll keep coming back again and again
I hope this world - this escape - this love
Will never end.

Time In Summer Nature

The sky burns with the fire of orange and yellow
The clouds glide with the freedom of a bird
The lightning bounces and flashes with power from God
The warm air moves as the oceans sail

The stars are alive with mysteries aglow
The forests grow with green relent
The rain falls and the relief gained is Nature's earned
The sun in its glory awakens the world

As time in summer goes on, Nature remembers how to live.

Is This Love Real?

Someone may know all you wants and needs
Someone may know how your heart will bleed
Someone may try to love you with all their might
Someone may try to turn all your bads into rights
But only you know how you feel inside
Only you know who to confide
Only you know how your heart will feel
Only you know if this love is real.

Good And Bad

God gave me all things good and bad
He makes my life happy but sometimes sad
He sometimes says no when I want to hear yes
He sometimes doesn't give answers - I have to guess
He loves more than I could ever know
He gave me a life whiter than snow
He has a place for me in heaven not in hell
I am so happy he loves me. I have to tell!

Flirtation

Flirtation, innuendo and fantasies
They are the tools of our little game
The looks, the body language tell a story on their own
What goes through the mind of the other?
Time spent and experiences felt
Are the satisfaction of our yearning souls
The closeness, togetherness seperated by a small space
They feed the fuel of the desires within
Are somethings best left up to the imagination?

Decisions

Friends or no which way will we go?
Close or far no matter where we are
I'll be there no matter what we decide.

Lovers or not will we get caught?
Here or there - anywhere
You'll be around whatever we decide.

Casual or quaint will we show restraint?
Today or next week a smile or a kiss on the cheek
We'll be together when we decide.

Seldom or steady are we ready?
Right or wrong in poem or song
We'll be friends forever.

Giving

Giving is what I do best
Giving is what sets me apart from all the rest
Giving all I have to the ones I love
Giving, there's nothing else I can put above
Giving all I have inside
It's something from which I cannot hide
It's who I am
It's where I'll be
It's when I'm happy
Giving.

Empty

Empty.
Closed and dark
Sullen and cold
Damp and dingy
Are the rooms of my mind.

It's Gotta Be Me - A Song

Why's is gotta be me
to make all the decisions?
Why's it gotta be me
that always hurts inside?
Why's it gotta be me
to love you with all of my heart?
Why's it gotta be me
to hurt so deep inside?
Why's it gotta be me?
Why oh why's it gotta be me?

Because I gave for you
I bled for you
I hurt for you
Now I cry for you....
Why's it gotta be me?
I said why oh why's it gotta be me?

Why's it gotta be me
to change the way I'm livin'?
Why's it gotta be me
that needs to die inside?
Why's it gotta be me
to sacrifice it all?
Why's it gotta be me
to end up with nothing but love?

Because I changed for you
I lied for you
I denied for you
Now I pray for you....

Oh oh, I gave for you
I hurt for you
I cry for you
I changed for you
I denied for you
Now I pray for you...
Why's it gotta be me?
Why oh why's it gotta be me?
I said why oh why's it gotta be me?
I said please, It's gotta be me.
It's gotta be me.
It's gotta be me.

The Tall Tree

The tall tree spilts in the middle
Branches go their seperate ways
Limbs do not grow at the bottom
The brown but lifeless wood
Is a reminder of all that used to be
The green that is life is all on top
It shows where things are going
It's a reminder that even though things start off a little rough,
in the end, things may end up okay.

Wrong Or Right?

How can something so right feel so wrong
Why should they be apart when they feel they belong
They get along great and have lots of laughs
There's a physical attraction and romance at that

When they're together they look really happy
They sometimes say things that are sort of sappy
They're good to each other and mutually respect
They are honest and open and always direct

When they're apart they often long
One can't help weep when he hears her song
How can something so wrong feel so right
One can't sleep when she turns out the lights

The way she moves the way he speaks
The way they feel together even in the wrong seats!
The time that they spend and the things that they do
They look like they're in love if you could see them too

How can that be wrong when it feels so right
How will they end every special night
With a hug or a hand or a simple sweet smile
The feelings they have there is no denial

But can it work for these two close friends
Who just dont want to get hurt in the end
But with all of these things in plain view site
How can it be so wrong when it feels so right?

For Me

Depression is as deep as down below
Anger aiming up against the sky
Frustration's feeling of fear and regret
Resentment is resounding relentless torment
Untrusting unruly unjust punishment
No notion of niceness or nearness just resent
Trying to tear the tears from inside
It's the black bear of weight beneath my beating heart
A black bear of weight within my beating heart

Happiness is high as the heavens above
Love loneliness no more
Relief from relentless unforgiving remorse
Broken bonds - bound no more
Freedom finally from gripping fear
That tried to tear the tears from inside
Now that the black bear of weight is gone from off my heart
The weight is gone from my heart
I can now live
For me.

On The Brink

It's warm and comfortable
Kind and gentle
Romantic and passionate.
There's respect and kindness
Friendship and love
Fun and excitement.
We're on the brink of something grand.

Transluscent Blue

Transluscent blue lets in the sunshine
The light projects a cooling shadow
The breeze that blows between the strands
Fills the room with a breath of new life.

The transluscent blue is life itself
The light is the shadow of the world
The Earth and all of its strands
Fills my soul with a new life of love.

Transluscent blue is what I want to become
The light projecting a shadow of kindness
The air that breathes through each of my strands
Fills life with a coolness of love.

Too Fast

Can love be slowed to a certain speed?
Can love be contained to a low gear?
Can love be stopped from going out of control?
Is love going too fast?

Will love last at this rate of speed?
Will love stop after it has gotten out of the gate?
Will love get lost somewhere along the way?
Is love going too fast?

Has love been good for you?
Has love been all you wanted it to be?
Has love met all of your needs?
Or has love gone too fast?

A Snake

A snake can hiss but won't keep us apart
It's great to have a sister so dear to my heart
Just sit right back and have some laughs
Make all of the bad a thing of the past
So unpop the cork and enjoy your wine
Sit back, put your feet up and have a good time
So have yourself a drink but whatever you do
Save some for me 'cause I need some too!

A Piece Of Heaven - inspired by the Mike Peters Song "You Are To Me"

You are to me a piece of heaven.
You are to me a light that shines in my heart.
You always make me happier than I can be.
You are a piece of heaven that is to me.

You are to me a piece of heaven.
You have taken my heart my mind and all my soul.
You are to me my one true desire.
You are the one who leads me through all the muck and mire.

You are to me a piece of heaven.
You are the one I will always love.
You are to me the clouds of all the skies.
You are to me a piece of heaven in my eyes.

The Beast

From the darkest areas of the mind
The beast that strangles the life from you
Lies in wait for when you are at the most vulnerable
It will strike when you least expect
It will take what it wants - usually your sanity
The beast will scratch and claw at your flesh
It will leave you hurt and disabled
It will leave you beaten and bloody
But will later return to devour your soul
From the darkest areas of my mind
The beast has been beaten back into a corner
It has fought bravely and courageously
It lies in wait for that moment to strike
That moment when your pride and selfworth
Is at its highest - not a fear in the world
You think it has been beaten
You think you have conquered the beast
And then you will lose.

Angry

If you can be an asshole, I can be one too
If you can throw dirt on me, it'll be comin' back at you
If you can be so disrespectful
If you can treat me with so little mind
If you can be so thoughtless and cruel
Don't expect to get any of my time.

I tried to bring you happiness, I tried to make things right
I tried to do you a favor and all I get back in return was a fight
I tried to be helpful
I tried to be kind
I tried to be the brightness in all your darkness of night
But all you did was waste all of my time.

Oh How I Miss You

Oh how I miss you and all that you are
Oh how I miss you when you are so far
From my heart and my life and all of my soul
Oh how I miss you I want you to know

Oh how I miss lying there in your arms
Oh how I miss all of your life's charms
And your smile and your laugh and your sweet gentle kiss
I want you to know how greatly you are missed

Oh how I miss your warm sweet touch
Oh how I miss how you love me so much
With your heart and your soul and all that you are
Oh how I miss you when you are so far.

The Gecko

The Gecko scurries from below the wooden ramp.
It stops and stares into a world known only to his eyes.
"Hello little guy!" I say. "It is nice to finally meet you."
The Gecko looks beyond me.
"Well, you are a neat little creature." I continue.
The Gecko continues to ignore me.
"Why Mister Gecko, what have I done to cause you to not answer me?"
The Gecko turns his head towards me.
"Mister Gecko, do you not like me?"
The Gecko opens his mouth.
"Little Gecko, if there is something that I have done wrong please tell me."
The Gecko sticks out his tongue and spats,
"Who the hell are you? I'm just trying to get some sun here!"
The Gecko scurries away and with him my intrigue.

The Kareokeeolla Bear

The Kareokeeolla Bear eats mentholyptus leaves
He eats them so he doesn't get scurvy
That and he also wears his rubbers to practice safe eating
From the rain which will lower his resistance
And keep him from getting sick as the wombat looks on
in disbelief.

Think Of Me

I hope you will always think of me
May you always be as happy as you can be
I hope you smile when you think of me
May your joy blossom all the days in your history
I hope your life is bright when you think of me
May your light shine for all the world to see
No matter where you are no matter where you'll be
I hope you will always think of me.

The Club

Disco ball lights and the flashes that shine
All of the beer and all of the wine
Dark and noisy with sounds that boom
People jam-packed in such a confined little room
A breath of air needed from the smoke inside
In a place so crowded it is very easy to hide
Pictures with nudeness and small naked hearts
People yearning for other's pleasure parts
The looks the questions and all of the stares
Everyone I'm sure wonders, "What is he doing here?"
You need to be relived but not in this place
Where everyone knows what you are by the look on your face.

You Make Me Smile

You know how to make me smile
You know how to make me happy
You know how to light my life
You know how to make things right
You know how to make me laugh
You know how to be patient and kind
You know how to make me weak
You know how to give me strength
You know how to take all my fears away
I will love you now and all the other days.

Trapped

Trapped in a life where there's no escape
Trapped in time as it pulls you down
Trapped as the hands of fate hold you back
Trapped in a hole with crumbling walls
You reach for a hand to grasp
You try to pull yourself up
You try to breathe and scream
You are trapped
Trapped in a room all your own
Trapped in a world small as sand
Trapped as a noose that won't let go
Trapped in a hole with crumbling walls
You pray to God for an escape
You plead and beg with all your might
You try to live your life but
You are trapped.

Complete

Complete is what I want it to become
Complete is when all is said and done
Complete is when the papers have been signed
Complete is what is on my mind.
You once were my complete
You once were what was my half to the whole
You once meant all that there was and what there was to be
You once meant everything there was to complete me.
Complete is time to let it go
Complete the life that I had known
Complete has now come and gone
Complete is how I make right out of all the wrong.

Complete II

You are all I need to be complete
You are what completes all that is inside of me
If you are by my side or even far away
I know that you will always complete me in every single way.

You are all I need to be complete
You are what burns the fire deep inside of me
In darkness or light in day or in night
You will always complete me when I see your beautiful sight.

You are all I need to be complete
You are what I love most that lives inside of me
It's you whom I love and it's you in whom I confide
Please always complete me and become my bride.

Court

Cold, no feelings or remorse
Calculated, no compassion or humanity
It's all by the numbers
Trying hard to smile while deep down inside lies the uneasiness of pain
Thinking in a lonely way while I am here
Under the guise of love the pain will end and surely the time must pass into oblivion of the heart's most inner soul.
Crying in controlled sighs as the onlookers think to themselves, "I'm glad that's not me up there."
All of them knowing quite well their turn is coming up next.

Tarnished

Lonely in a world of pain
Tried hard to keep the rain from falling
Tired and bruised, hot and cold
All that shined was the gold on my hand
Tarnished and scratched the shimmer was gone
The road travelled was long and scorned
The symbol of love and the day it had died
Cannot say that one did not try.

Joy, Life, Truth and Love

The truth of love is in your touch
The joy of love rests in your smile
The life of love is the one that we share

The truth of love is in your soul
The joy of love envelops me in your stare
The life of love is the one that will last forever

The truth of love is in your heart
The joy of love connects us on a higher level
The life of love is the passion that beats in our hearts

The truth of love is what lies before your eyes
The joy of love is you and all that you bring to my world
The life of love is how we will spend eternity.

Something Missing

Something missing in my heart
Something missing from my soul
Something missing in my heart
Something missing where did the spirit go?

Something missing in my life
Something missing from deep down inside
Something missing in my life
Something missing where did it go and where did it hide?

Something missing in my world
Something missing from my mind
Something missing in my world
Something missing where is the spirit spending its time?

Leaving

It is time for me to leave you
I must go quickly as the goodbye would last forever
The long ride home is a moment of solitude from a period of oneness
Cars pass on the left while I stare right into the distance
Wondering if you are thinking of me
The road passes by and the hum of the engine relaxes me into a daze
The darkness is pierced by the headlights of others on their way to places unknown
Are they leaving the one they love?
Are they on a long and lonely ride too?
Thinking and wishing you were here with me
Knowing that the bed I will be sleeping in is empty and cold
Hoping that the next time we meet can be as wonderful as the one just shared
Praying it will be.
Praying it will always be.
I turn on the radio to get my mind off of you
But your song plays and you are in my thoughts once more
I want you next to me holding my hand as I drive
But knowing that I have to wait to see you again darkens my spirits
I want to touch you and feel your love
But I imagine your touch and your laugh and I smile
Knowing that I will soon be holding you in my arms
And that makes leaving a little easier.

Thinking

I was thinking of my love for you
I have been so happy being a part of your life
I don't want to be the one to keep you from living
I want to experience life and all it has to offer me
But I do not want to do it alone
I want you to be there, enjoying all there is to enjoy
All there is to life and what it has in store for us
Will you be there with me?
Will you be there for me if I am feeling down or I am having a bad day?
Will you look into my eyes and take all of the bad away?
I want to do things for you and I want us to take care of each other
I am a simple person with simple dreams
I want someone who will always love me for who I am and who I will be
I want someone who will understand and who will want all that there is
inside of me
I want to be loved and I want to love someone dearly
Can you be that person for me?

Bits And Pieces- a couple of unfinished poems

Thou Art Mine And I Am Yours
No matter how high the clouds and the eagles that soar
Thou art mine and I am yours.

Saying Goodbye
Like the sun says goodbye to dawn of the day
Saying goodbye is always the hardest thing to say.

Chains
Your love that kept me in chains
Was the poison that flowed throughout my veins
Only a shell of a person is all that remains.

Season Of Christmas Joy

During the season of Christmas joy
You can unwrap my clothes and make me your toy
Through all of the days until the end of the year
Take me to your bed for some holiday cheer
I'd like to climb down your chimney and make you feel fine
Let me slowly empty your stockings one leg at a time
I want to taste and caress your sweet mistletoe
Let's feel holly and jolly and then cool down with some snow
This love that we share I can see no end
Let's unwrap all of our presents and do it again!

I Am Loving You

Can't believe the way you feel
I like the way you love
And how you love me
Now that you have let me in
To a life with all your heart
The things that we have done
It's all I need for love

And now my life is full
It's in my soul. It's in my heart.
I love life and your heart and your being
All the pain inside is gone
no more hurt and no more tears
I love life and your heart and your being

I can be my only one
The one I have to be
The one that's only me
You let me live with all I am
And the one I will become
And the things that will be done
You're all I need for love

And now my life is full
It's in my soul. It's in my heart.
I love life and your soul and your being
All the pain inside is gone
no more hurt and no more fears
I love life and your heart and your being
I am loving you.

Every Day That I'm In Love

Change in the way I feel about love
Change in the way that I am living
As I put my head on the pillow and look up at the stars
I pray for closeness and the oneness of your love
So be with me, may you never leave my side
Let me wake and touch your silk fine hair
So be with me, may you only be a heartbeat away
Let me sleep with my arms around you
Every day
Every day that you are living and you're breathing
Every day
Every day that you are feeling that you love me and you need me
Every day
Every day that I'm in love.

More changes in my life could not see what was coming
More changes in my life now I'm on the road to redemption
I want to put my head down on the pillow and look up at the moon
I pray for closeness and the oneness of your love
Be with me, may you always love me deeply
Let me wake and touch your face and say I love you
Be with me, may you always hold my heart
Let me walk in life beside you always
Every day
Every day that you are living and you're breathing
Every day
Every day that you are feeling that you need me and you love me
Every day
Every day that I'm in love.
Every day that I'm in love.

The First

Birthdays happen every year
But I am thankful for the first
The one that brought you into this world
The one that made it possible for us to be together
The one that allowed me to love you with all my heart
So every year I will remember how many
But I will thank God for the first.

Watching A Disaster Through A Window

A loud crash
People bustling about
Big steel girders with frames lying scattered and smashed
Others tending to others
Sirens blare as firemen and paramedics try to get organized
The wailing sound of a woman drowning in sorrow
The expressions of sadness and of disbelief
"But he just went to work!"
While another is dragged away kicking and screaming
Cameras capture the moment in time
As a dead body is carried on a lifeless stretcher
All the while I watch on in horror.

The Bear

Setting:
Walking down a path in the woods
The winding way was where we wandered

Up ahead appeared a black bulky bear
It filled me full of terror and riddled me with fear
She the one whom walked with me
Walked over to the bear and spoke so softly
"That is the one I was telling you.
You know what it is you need to do."
The bear looked at me and lapped his lips
"I will eat and swallow you whole.
Pain and suffering is all you will know."
I started to run, I was afraid to look back
Afraid I may see the bear and then become his mid afternoon snack
I ran thinking I had left that big black bear behind
The bear must be gone by now, I thought. That was a close one this time!
When I looked over my shoulder the bear was right there
I then tripped on a tree's root and fell flat on my rear
The creature hovered over me and then in his calm voice said,
"You're time has come - do not dread.
I will eat you slowly until you are dead."
I shrieked in terror - I could not believe my time had come
I called back to she who was with me, "My God, what have you done?"
She smiled at me and said without any caring
"My dear honey am I being a little over bearing?"

The "SIUYA" Lady

There is a lady that lives down the street
who I haven't really had the pleasure to meet.
She has been laughed at, ridiculed and alas
whenever you get near her she says, "Shove it up your ass!"

Now kids in the neighborhood have made up a little game
"Let's see how we can torment this lady!" they say, who appears to be insane.
They will taunt her, throw things at her house and run away fast
and in response she will yell, "Shove it up your ass!"

You can no longer walk past her home
on the way to the store minding your business all alone.
You can be a neighbor working on your lawn or watering your grass
but her response to you will always be, "Shove it up your ass!"

I haven't seen the "SIUYA" lady in quite some time
Was she really crazy and did she finally lose her mind?
I wonder if she is okay or if she has passed
but her response to me would probably be, "Shove it up your ass!"

Commute

I stumble out of bed at 7:54
Only have a few minutes to get my ass out the door
So I get in the car and turn to Rock 101
Maybe the Morning Buzz will make the drive to hell fun
A four way stop that soon turns into eight
"Oh my God I think I'm going to be late!"
I finally get to work at 9:03
Damn that hot chocolate made me want to pee.

But I commute all alone
It never gets any better
When will they get out of my way?
They drive me insane
Every day

Work all morning until a stale lunch at noon
The end of the day better come and better come real soon
On the toilet at 2:06
That bean burrito man it hit me like a ton of bricks!
Now it's three o'clock so I take 15
If this day takes any longer I think I'm going to scream!
Get in the car at 5:07
To be out of work man it feels like heaven!

But I commute all alone
It never gets any better
When will they get out of my way?
They drive me insane
Every day

But I commute all alone
It never gets any better
When will they get out of my way?
They drive me insane
Every day
Every day

Is this road one lane or is it two?
I'm on the wrong side and I'm heading right at you!
A nine mile trek that takes forty-five
Where did these freaks learn how to drive?
Get in the house at 5:49
What a perfectly good waste of my valuable time!
Get to bed no later than ten
Gotta wake up tomorrow and do it all over again!

But I commute all alone
It never gets any better
When will they get out of my way?
They sure drive me insane
Every day
Every day
Those crazy bastards like to drive me like to drive me insane
Every day
Every day
Every day 

the one

you are the one that i look up to
you are the one that i need
you are the one that i desire
you are the one give me release
i need your love
and i need your faith
i need the one
and you are
the one

i am the one that you wanted
i am the one that caught your eye
i am the one everlasting
i am the one love never dies
you need my love
and you need my faith
you need the one
and i am
the one

And i need your love
and you need my faith
i need the one
and i am
the one.


Chris'Corner